mindless chatter

Hello everyone,
I am at work and I just put the kids down.  I am exhausted today.  I don't know if it is all this rain or if it is my hormones.  Since the last time I posted I have had and recovered from my surgery.  I am glad to report that my doctor did find some things.  I ended up having stage 2 endometriosis, lots of scar tissue and a blocked ovary.  Everything was repaired and we are once again "trying" to get pregnant.  I will most likely have my 5th IUI this weekend.  I have to say that if this one does not work I am most likely going to change direction and start the IVF process.  I just believe that after 5 times if it doesn't work, then it isn't the right route for us.  I have had friends that have had 11 IUI's and I just can't see myself doing that.  I would rather move onto something where my odds of getting pregnant are higher.  This has been an exhausting two years.  I have to say though that this experience has brought me closer to my husband.  Even though I rarely feel that things are going my way, I know that I am lucky to have my husband.  He is the most amazing man I have ever met.  He is so patient and kind with me, even though I know I can be hard to be around.  He has been so awesome through this entire journey.  I know that a lot of guys could just leave or run away but Gregg has never left my side.  He is my best friend.  It really sucks but I have found that when you go through hard times a lot of people are too wrapped up in their own lives to care about what  you are going through.
 When I had my surgery it was amazing to me how many of my so called "friends" didn't call or come to visit.  Even members of my own family.  I have to admit at first I was really hurt by this but then I just came to the conclusion that I would rather have the few GREAT friends than a bunch of people who are just faking.  I know as we get older "life" tends to get in the way and we don't have as much time to spend hanging out.  I just really feel like it is important.  I know that I don't have the busyness of a child either,  but I know that it won't change the way I feel.  It is not that hard to find time at least once or twice a month to grab a drink or dinner and catch up.  I feel like I am constantly the one that one that is trying to keep my friendships going and it is tiring at times.  Honestly it makes me feel expendable and not important.  Call me "clingy" or "whiny", I don't care.  I chose you to be my friend for reason.  I like you and I like being around you.
Well I am done ranting.  I am going to go clean now.  Hope everyone is enjoying the break from the rain right now.  I honestly didn't know when I was ever going to see the sun again!!!!